Newly Published
Mind to Mind  |   April 2020
I Remember
Author Notes
  • From McMaster University, Hamilton, Ontario, Canada. ssharda@haltonhealthcare.com.
  • Accepted for publication February 28, 2020.
    Accepted for publication February 28, 2020.×
Article Information
Mind to Mind
Mind to Mind   |   April 2020
I Remember
Anesthesiology Newly Published on April 9, 2020. doi:https://doi.org/10.1097/ALN.0000000000003277
Anesthesiology Newly Published on April 9, 2020. doi:https://doi.org/10.1097/ALN.0000000000003277
I look up. I see her, racing toward me, baby in arms. Her face is beaming. The unmistakable glow of a proud new parent.
“Here he is, Dr. Sharda!” A round, sleeping baby is thrust into my clumsy arms. I steady my posture and look down into his merely days-old face. My fingers, moments earlier swiping and typing at furious speed to answer yet another email before I rush back to the OR, now slow their pace as I gently stroke his foot, his hand, his unbelievably soft hair.
“The epidural was amazing!” says his Mum breathlessly.
For the first time I look up into her blue eyes. They are bright and betray that heady mix of exhaustion and exhilaration—the hallmark of every new parent. I search that sea of blue, those flecks of brown, trying, pulling, reaching into the recesses of my memory to place this woman standing in front of me, her precious baby in my arms.