Newly Published
Mind to Mind  |   August 2019
My Brother’s Ghost
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  • This poem is one of the finalists of Anesthesiology’s 2018 annual creative writing competition, The Letheon.
    This poem is one of the finalists of Anesthesiology’s 2018 annual creative writing competition, The Letheon.×
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Mind to Mind
Mind to Mind   |   August 2019
My Brother’s Ghost
Anesthesiology Newly Published on August 30, 2019. doi:10.1097/ALN.0000000000002951
Anesthesiology Newly Published on August 30, 2019. doi:10.1097/ALN.0000000000002951
In my grandfather’s hospital, the ghosts are transient.
If only because they are retracing their steps—they were alive
here last, or lived here first. So much of his life was spent
here: peering into the intimate clockwork of each person.
As a child I would watch my father reset the clocks
inside of people, as Papang did. The job requires the sureness
of hands. I have no such certitude, and I am almost never
on time. But who is always so sure? The day after my brother
was born, Papang’s heart gave—he collapsed on the bathroom floor.
I imagine how my father must have fumbled for the vital